thanks to God!!!

January 4th, 2006 by graeco-romana-13

hmmm…i wanna share this wonderful thing in my life…

before:

i was a bully, naughty, and a damn guy..i used to drink alcohol everynight..smoke every minute or 5…i used marijuana thrice…all people around me were angry to me coz of my fucking attitude…i was a teacher’s enemy number one…i didnt think any good things…i didnt appreicate how life is so beautiful and especially i didnt appreciate HIM…

Now:

im happy with my life now…appreciate happy things, i am treasuring every special moments every seconds of my life…accepting big damn problems as a small…i value and love the person who cares for me and who appreciates my work…and the most important is…IM BACK FROM HIM…IM BACK FROM HIS HANDS…I HUG HIM ONCE AGAIN…

how does it happen???

i see GOD thru people around me..bro. arjay, columbian squire member, my mother, my friends, ateh Jesselle and especially Da Da John…

i feel Him thru His works, i percept all my prob as His special challenge for me… i know He doesnt want to hurt me but its a job…

i hear His voice thru the people who always say that they love me, they care for me and they value me as a person…

i taste all His food thru bible verses…thru good thoughts that i’ve been reading…

a special moment with Him:

i did attend the mass last dec. 31…many people came to attend the mass and nobody can focus on that celebration but me, focused on every words, every songs, every acts that we’ve done..i dont know why…then after the Holy Communion…i kneeled and say a little prayer…during that time..i cried, my tears fall…my seatmate heard me that im crying…i dont know why..i felt the cold on my stomach…i dont know what’s happening..from that time i felt that im the only person on that place…after that prayer, when i opened my eyes, i saw some of the people around me staring at me..but i just sit on the bench and pretend that nothing happens…

i am very happy to have Him in my life..once again, He showed His Love for me, that very special and strongest love that i felt on my entire life…im happy to be with Him again..and i hope, or i will be we with Him forever…

Psalm 46:1-2

God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.
Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea

——————————————————-p.s. im sorry if some or all of my grammar is wrong…its just that i wanna share it to people not only to pinoy but also to other..

God loves me and God Loves you because God Rocks our life!!!!

What Tree Did You Fall From??

October 27th, 2005 by graeco-romana-13

WHAT TREE DID YOU FALL FROM?

Find your birthday and then find your tree. This is really cool and somewhat accurate. Then send it to your friends, including the one that sent it to you, so they can find out what tree you fell from, but don’t forget to change the subject line to your tree. Find your tree below and see what you are like…

Dec 23 to Jan 01 - Apple Tree
Jan 01 to Jan 11 - Fir Tree
Jan 12 to Jan 24 - Elm Tree
Jan 25 to Feb 03 - Cypress Tree
Feb 04 to Feb 08 - Poplar Tree
Feb 09 to Feb 18 - Cedar Tree
Feb 19 to Feb 28 - Pine Tree
Mar 01 to Mar 10 - Weeping Willow Tree
Mar 11 to Mar 20 - Lime Tree
Mar 21 (only) - Oak Tree
Mar 22 to Mar 31 - Hazelnut Tree
Apr 01 to Apr 10 - Rowan Tree
Apr 11 to Apr 20 - Maple Tree
Apr 21 to Apr 30 - Walnut Tree
May 01 to May 14 - Poplar Tree
May 15 to May 24 - Chestnut Tree
May 25 to Jun 03 - Ash Tree
Jun 04 to Jun 13 - Hornbeam Tree
Jun 14 to Jun 23 - Fig Tree
Jun 24 (only) - Birch Tree
Jun 25 to Jul 04 - Apple Tree
Jul 05 to Jul 14 - Fir Tree
Jul 15 to Jul 25 - Elm Tree
Jul 26 to Aug 04 - C ypress Tree
Aug 05 to Aug 13 - Poplar Tree
Aug 14 to Aug 23 - Cedar Tree
Aug 24 to Sep 02 - Pine Tree
Sep 03 to Sep 12 - Weeping Willow Tree
Sep 13 to Sep 22 - Lime Tree
Sep 23 (only) - Olive Tree
Sep 24 to Oct 03 - Hazelnut Tree
Oct 04 to Oct 13 - Rowan Tree
Oct 14 to Oct 23 - Maple Tree
Oct 24 to Nov 11 - Walnut Tree
Nov 12 to Nov 21 - Chestnut Tree
Nov 22 to Dec 01 - Ash Tree
Dec 02 to Dec 11 - Horn beam Tree
Dec 12 to Dec 21 - Fig Tree
Dec 22 (only) - Beech Tree

TREES (in alphabetical order)

Apple Tree (Love) — quiet and shy at times, lots of charm, appeal, and attraction, pleasant attitude, flirtatious smile, adventurous, sensitive, loyal in love, wants to love and be loved, faithful and tender partner, very generous, many talents, loves children, needs affectionate partner.

Ash Tree (Ambition) — extremely attractive, vivacious, impulsive, demanding, does not care for criticism, ambitious, intelligent, talented, likes to play with fate, can be very egotistic, reliable, restless lover, sometimes money rules over the heart, demands attention, needs love and much emotional support.

Beech Tree (Creative) — has good taste, concerned about its looks, materialistic, good organization of life and career, economi cal, good leader, takes no unnecessary risks, reasonable, splendid lifetime companion, keen on keeping fit (diets, sports, etc.).

Birch Tree (Inspiration) — vivacious, attractive, elegant,friendly, unpretentious, modest, does not like anything in excess, abhors the vulgar, loves life in nature and in calm, not very passionate, full of
> imagination, little ambition, creates a calm and content atmosphere.

Cedar Tree (Confidence) — of rare strength, knows how to adapt, likes unexpected presents, of good health, not in the least shy, tends to look down on others, self-confident, a great speaker, determined, often impatient, likes to impress others, has many talents, industrious, healthy optimism, waits for the one true love, able to make quick decisions.

Chestnut Tree (Honesty) — of unusual stature, impressive, well-developed sense of justice, fun to be around, a planner, born diplomat, can be irritated easily, sensitive of others feelings, hard worker, sometimes acts superior, feels not understood at times, fiercely family oriented, very loyal in love, physically fit.

Cypress Tree (Faithfulness) — strong, muscular, adaptable, takes what life has to give but doesn’t necessarily like it, strives to be content, optimistic, wants to be financially independent, wants love and affection, hates loneliness, passionate lover which cannot be satisfied, faithful, quick-tempered at times, can be unruly and careless, loves to gain knowledge, needs to be needed.

Elm Tree (Noble-mindedness) — pleasant shape, tasteful clothes, modest demands, tends not to forgive mistakes, cheerful, likes to lead but not
> to obey, honest and faithful partner, likes making decisions for others, noble-minded, generous, good sense of humor, practical.

Fig Tree (Sensibility) — very strong minded, a bit self-willed, honest, loyal, independent, hates contradiction or arguments, hard worker when wants to be, loves life and friends, enjoys children and animals, sexually oriented, great sense of humor, has artistic talent and great intelligence.

Fir tree (Mysterious) — extraordinary taste, handles stress well, loves anything beautiful, stubborn, tends to care for those close to them, hard to trust others, yet a social butterfly, likes idleness and laziness after long demanding hours at work, rather modest, talented, unselfish, many friends, very reliable.

Hazelnut Tree (Extraordinary) — charming, sense of humor, very demanding but can also be very understanding, knows how to make a lasting impression, active fighter for social causes and politics, popular, quite moody, sexually oriented, honest, a perfectionist, has a precise sense of judgment and expects complete fairness.

Hornbeam Tree (Good Taste) — of cool beauty, cares for its looks and condition, good taste, is not egoistic, makes life as comfortable as possible, leads a reasonable and disciplined life, looks for kindness and acknowledgment in an emotional partner, dreams of unusual lovers, is seldom happy with its feelings, mistrusts most people, is never sure of its decisions, very conscientious.

Lime Tree (Doubt) - intelligent, hard working, accepts what life dishes out, but not before tr ying to change bad circumstances into good ones, hates fighting and stress, enjoys getaway vacations, may appear tough, but is actually soft and relenting, always willing to make sacrifices for family and friends, has many talents but not always enough time to use them, great leadership qualities, is jealous at times but extremely loyal.

Maple Tree (Independence of Mind) — no ordinary person, full of imagination and originality, shy and reserved, ambitious, proud, self-confident, hungers for new experiences, sometimes nervous, has many complexities, good memory, learns easily, complicated love life, wants to impress.

Oak Tree (Brave) — robust nature, courageous, strong, unrelenting, independent, sensible, does not like change, keeps its feet on the ground, person of a ction.

Olive Tree (Wisdom) — loves sun, warmth and kind feelings, reasonable, balanced, avoids aggression and violence, tolerant, cheerful, calm, well-developed sense of justice, sensitive, empathetic, free of jealousy, loves to read and the company of sophisticated people.

Pine Tree (Peacemaker) — loves agreeable company, craves peace and harmony, loves to help others, active imagination, likes to write poetry, not fashion conscious, great compassion, friendly to all, falls strongly in love but will leave if betrayed or lied to, emotionally soft, low self esteem, needs affection and reassurance.

Poplar Tree (Uncertainty) — looks very decorative, talented, not very self-confident, extremely courageous i f necessary, needs goodwill and pleasant surroundings, very choosy, often lonely, great animosity, great artistic nature, good organizer, tends to lean toward philosophy, reliable in any situation, takes partnership seriously.

Rowan Tree (Sensitivity) — full of charm, cheerful, gifted without egoism, likes to draw attention, loves life, motion, unrest, and even complications, is both dependent and independent, good taste, artistic, passionate, emotional, good company, does not forgive.

Walnut Tree (Passion) — unrelenting, strange and full of contrasts, often egotistic, aggressive, noble, broad horizon, unexpected reactions, spontaneous, unlimited ambition, no flexibility, difficult and uncommon partner, not always liked but often admired, ingenious strategist, very jealous and passionate, no compromise.

Weeping Willow (Melancholy) - likes to be stress free, loves famil y life, full of hopes and dreams, attractive, very empathetic, loves anything beautiful, musically inclined, loves to travel to exotic places, restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced but is not easy to live with when pressured, sometimes demanding, good intuition, suffers in love until they find that one loyal, steadfast partner; loves to make others laugh.

gising!!!!

October 14th, 2005 by graeco-romana-13

everyday of our lives…puro gimik, surfing the net, gigs, etc. ang alam natin ngayon …let’s talk about naman our government..
cguro lam nio na kung ano ang nangyayari sa bansa natin now…RP??? sobra na tayong nahihirapan sa administration natin ngayon…wala ba tayong gagawin about this prob???
natatawa nga ako na naiinis..lam nio kung bakit

1. sabi ni mrs. gloria..inde ko cia kilalaning president..naging leader ba cia sa atin?… outside the country..ok daw tayo? nalampasan na natin ung mga problema…totoo kaya yun? kung totoo un,  bakit gusto niang magpatawag ng "state of emergency..martial law"? bakit ganun na lang ang mga steps nia…nattakot ba cia????

2. yang issue about "hello garci"? sobra nia tayong niloko dun ha..tinapakan nia na ang ating karapatan…ginagawa pa nia tayong tanga…pinaikot pa sa palad nia…sabi natin..di tayo m agpapatalo sa kanya pero bakit ganun..natabunan na yang issue na yan..ang utak talaga nia…pinatungan nia ng kung anu-anong issue para mawala yang bwisit na hello garci na yan..ngayon…baon na sa limot yan…

3. ung nagyari knina…oct. 14, 2005… nagkaroon ng prayer rally, procession ang mga kilalang pulitiko katulad nina former v-pres. guingona…exec sec. oscar orbos…sen jamby madrigal…mga kongresista at mga alagad ng Diyos, at mga masang pilipino…bombahin ng tubig sila..cnong tangan g tao na maniniwala na isang pulis or kahit sino pa man ang maguutos na bombahin ung mga taong un??? hello??? lahat g tao marunong matakot unless kung ang maguutos sa m ga pulis eh ung masd mataas sa v-pres. sen. congressman at iba pa…cno pa ba kayang mag-utos nun??? come to think of it???

lam nio..and2 ako sa cavite city…finacially weak…gustong-gusto ko pumunta dun..wala akong pamasahe…kahit pamasahe lang ok na…kahit wala na akong kainin…basta mailabas ko lang ung nararamdaman ko…kayo??? wala ba kyong steps na gagawin..and2 ako sa harap ng computer…nanawagan sa inyo…m agkaroon kayo ng concern sa bansa natin…tayo rin ang naapektuhan…i-set aside muna natin ang sarili nating kaligayahan…kumilos ka na…gising…

kung ako programmer..o kaya’y marunong akong gumawa ng site…gagawa ako ng site na parang isang signature campaigne…kahit sa simpleng bagay na ito…makatulong ako…gising..wak kang magtulog-tulogan dyan…malapit na ang martial law..cge ka…ikaw at ang pamilya mo rin ang kawawa….

paranoia????

September 17th, 2005 by graeco-romana-13

paranoia…paranoid ako…yan ang palaging nasa utak ko this fast few days/weeks…inde ko alam kung bakit…kahit ako tinatanong ko sarili ko kung bakit ako napaparanoid…andaming bagay ang gumugulo sa aking isipan…

1. meron akong friend na matatawag ko ng "bestfriend"…cguro, dahil ung bonding moment namin kasi pag may problem cia with his lovelyf…tropa ko din naman ung partner nia eh…thus, ung wrestling namin palagi, lagi nga akong kawawa, pano ba naman fit na fit ung katawan nia eh samantalang ako sobrang thin as in…then one day, nag-away kami, batsa mababaw na reason lang…nagalit ako sa kanya…ciempre…sabi ko di ko cia papansinin…talagang di ko cia pinansin..kaya lang inde ko maiwasang hindi cia batiin kasi nasa isang bahay lang kami…eh kasama namin ung gf nia…tapos meron pa ciang 2 tropa na nadito..minsan feeling ko pinagu-uusapan nila ako…may sinasabi silang masama sa akin <which is  nasa isip ko lang…then sometimes, ung mga kilos nila…inde ko talaga maiwasang mabwisit…naiiinis ako pag ganun…kaya lang di ako makareact sa akanila kasi isip ko lang yum…wala pa akong confirmation…pinaprangka ko sila kaya lang inde daw……basta…diba magulo???? ang alam ko…tama ung nasa isip ko..now anong gagawin ko para lumabas sa kanila ung nasa isip ko…

2. parehas din ng character nung sa una, bad breath daw ako…basta palagi nila akong niloloko na bad breath daw ako…eh kasi naman ako…la akong pakialam kahit nasa harap ng ibang tao…inaamoy ko tuloy ung hininga ko…pinagtatawanan lang nila ako…<lang kwenta noh>..ang point ko d2 eh..<sa isip lang> bat yaw nila sabihin ng diretsa eh sabi ko naman sa kanila sabihin nila ung nakikitang masama sa akin..kahit hygiene pa un…la akong pakialam..kung tunay silang kaibigan dba….kung kaibigan nga talaga ang turing nila sa akin? batsa ako friend ang turing ko dun sa 1 boy at dun sa 1 girl…sa 2..inde maciado dahil may naririnig akong kakaiba sa kanila…

3. may pinuntahan akong ex-college classmate, nagkwentuhan and dumating ung topis sa psychological behavior ko…sabi na psychological incapacitated daw ako…i agree to her, slight lang, kasi kahit ako may nakikita akong kabaliwang ginagawa ko, tanong ko tuloy sa sarili ko…baliw na ba talaga ako or baliw ako? dba un rin un…isip ako ng isip tungkol dun…kailangan kong masolusyonan yun…then ginawa ko…i talk to a friend…yung babae sa no. 1….sabi nia normal lang un sa katulad ko…SA KATULAD NAMIN…<isa siyang napakatalinong babae….pero nasa uso…ung bang "MODERN NERD" ganun..kasi daw iba kami mag-isip…basta…ganun…nasabi ko tuloy sa sarili ko…aba tama bang i-level nia ako sakanya..it means…matalino din ako waheheheh….i trust her very much kaya kahit papano naging panatag ung loob ko…pero inde rin until now..naguguluhan pa din ako and habang tumatagal nacoconfused ako sa kanya…parang di totoo ung cnabi…bumalik na naman ung mga kung anu-anong iniisip ko…

basta kung cno man ung nakakakilala sa akin…tulungan nio ko…sabihin nio lahat ng positive and negative ko…message me…kaht papano…gusto ko talagang ipa-evaluate ung sarili ko sa 1 psychologist<libre lang un may kakilala ako> plz help me…thnx…God bLezz

paranoia????

September 17th, 2005 by graeco-romana-13

paranoia…paranoid ako…yan ang palaging nasa utak ko this fast few days/weeks…inde ko alam kung bakit…kahit ako tinatanong ko sarili ko kung bakit ako napaparanoid…andaming bagay ang gumugulo sa aking isipan…

1. meron akong friend na matatawag ko ng "bestfriend"…cguro, dahil ung bonding moment namin kasi pag may problem cia with his lovelyf…tropa ko din naman ung partner nia eh…thus, ung wrestling namin palagi, lagi nga akong kawawa, pano ba naman fit na fit ung katawan nia eh samantalang ako sobrang thin as in…then one day, nag-away kami, batsa mababaw na reason lang…nagalit ako sa kanya…ciempre…sabi ko di ko cia papansinin…talagang di ko cia pinansin..kaya lang inde ko maiwasang hindi cia batiin kasi nasa isang bahay lang kami…eh kasama namin ung gf nia…tapos meron pa ciang 2 tropa na nadito..minsan feeling ko pinagu-uusapan nila ako…may sinasabi silang masama sa akin <which is  nasa isip ko lang…then sometimes, ung mga kilos nila…inde ko talaga maiwasang mabwisit…naiiinis ako pag ganun…kaya lang di ako makareact sa akanila kasi isip ko lang yum…wala pa akong confirmation…pinaprangka ko sila kaya lang inde daw……basta…diba magulo???? ang alam ko…tama ung nasa isip ko..now anong gagawin ko para lumabas sa kanila ung nasa isip ko…

2. parehas din ng character nung sa una, bad breath daw ako…basta palagi nila akong niloloko na bad breath daw ako…eh kasi naman ako…la akong pakialam kahit nasa harap ng ibang tao…inaamoy ko tuloy ung hininga ko…pinagtatawanan lang nila ako…<lang kwenta noh>..ang point ko d2 eh..<sa isip lang> bat yaw nila sabihin ng diretsa eh sabi ko naman sa kanila sabihin nila ung nakikitang masama sa akin..kahit hygiene pa un…la akong pakialam..kung tunay silang kaibigan dba….kung kaibigan nga talaga ang turing nila sa akin? batsa ako friend ang turing ko dun sa 1 boy at dun sa 1 girl…sa 2..inde maciado dahil may naririnig akong kakaiba sa kanila…

3. may pinuntahan akong ex-college classmate, nagkwentuhan and dumating ung topis sa psychological behavior ko…sabi na psychological incapacitated daw ako…i agree to her, slight lang, kasi kahit ako may nakikita akong kabaliwang ginagawa ko, tanong ko tuloy sa sarili ko…baliw na ba talaga ako or baliw ako? dba un rin un…isip ako ng isip tungkol dun…kailangan kong masolusyonan yun…then ginawa ko…i talk to a friend…yung babae sa no. 1….sabi nia normal lang un sa katulad ko…SA KATULAD NAMIN…<isa siyang napakatalinong babae….pero nasa uso…ung bang "MODERN NERD" ganun..kasi daw iba kami mag-isip…basta…ganun…nasabi ko tuloy sa sarili ko…aba tama bang i-level nia ako sakanya..it means…matalino din ako waheheheh….i trust her very much kaya kahit papano naging panatag ung loob ko…pero inde rin until now..naguguluhan pa din ako and habang tumatagal nacoconfused ako sa kanya…parang di totoo ung cnabi…bumalik na naman ung mga kung anu-anong iniisip ko…

basta kung cno man ung nakakakilala sa akin…tulungan nio ko…sabihin nio lahat ng positive and negative ko…message me…kaht papano…gusto ko talagang ipa-evaluate ung sarili ko sa 1 psychologist<libre lang un may kakilala ako> plz help me…thnx…God bLezz

paranoia????

September 17th, 2005 by graeco-romana-13

paranoia…paranoid ako…yan ang palaging nasa utak ko this fast few days/weeks…inde ko alam kung bakit…kahit ako tinatanong ko sarili ko kung bakit ako napaparanoid…andaming bagay ang gumugulo sa aking isipan…

1. meron akong friend na matatawag ko ng "bestfriend"…cguro, dahil ung bonding moment namin kasi pag may problem cia with his lovelyf…tropa ko din naman ung partner nia eh…thus, ung wrestling namin palagi, lagi nga akong kawawa, pano ba naman fit na fit ung katawan nia eh samantalang ako sobrang thin as in…then one day, nag-away kami, batsa mababaw na reason lang…nagalit ako sa kanya…ciempre…sabi ko di ko cia papansinin…talagang di ko cia pinansin..kaya lang inde ko maiwasang hindi cia batiin kasi nasa isang bahay lang kami…eh kasama namin ung gf nia…tapos meron pa ciang 2 tropa na nadito..minsan feeling ko pinagu-uusapan nila ako…may sinasabi silang masama sa akin <which is  nasa isip ko lang…then sometimes, ung mga kilos nila…inde ko talaga maiwasang mabwisit…naiiinis ako pag ganun…kaya lang di ako makareact sa akanila kasi isip ko lang yum…wala pa akong confirmation…pinaprangka ko sila kaya lang inde daw……basta…diba magulo???? ang alam ko…tama ung nasa isip ko..now anong gagawin ko para lumabas sa kanila ung nasa isip ko…

2. parehas din ng character nung sa una, bad breath daw ako…basta palagi nila akong niloloko na bad breath daw ako…eh kasi naman ako…la akong pakialam kahit nasa harap ng ibang tao…inaamoy ko tuloy ung hininga ko…pinagtatawanan lang nila ako…<lang kwenta noh>..ang point ko d2 eh..<sa isip lang> bat yaw nila sabihin ng diretsa eh sabi ko naman sa kanila sabihin nila ung nakikitang masama sa akin..kahit hygiene pa un…la akong pakialam..kung tunay silang kaibigan dba….kung kaibigan nga talaga ang turing nila sa akin? batsa ako friend ang turing ko dun sa 1 boy at dun sa 1 girl…sa 2..inde maciado dahil may naririnig akong kakaiba sa kanila…

3. may pinuntahan akong ex-college classmate, nagkwentuhan and dumating ung topis sa psychological behavior ko…sabi na psychological incapacitated daw ako…i agree to her, slight lang, kasi kahit ako may nakikita akong kabaliwang ginagawa ko, tanong ko tuloy sa sarili ko…baliw na ba talaga ako or baliw ako? dba un rin un…isip ako ng isip tungkol dun…kailangan kong masolusyonan yun…then ginawa ko…i talk to a friend…yung babae sa no. 1….sabi nia normal lang un sa katulad ko…SA KATULAD NAMIN…<isa siyang napakatalinong babae….pero nasa uso…ung bang "MODERN NERD" ganun..kasi daw iba kami mag-isip…basta…ganun…nasabi ko tuloy sa sarili ko…aba tama bang i-level nia ako sakanya..it means…matalino din ako waheheheh….i trust her very much kaya kahit papano naging panatag ung loob ko…pero inde rin until now..naguguluhan pa din ako and habang tumatagal nacoconfused ako sa kanya…parang di totoo ung cnabi…bumalik na naman ung mga kung anu-anong iniisip ko…

basta kung cno man ung nakakakilala sa akin…tulungan nio ko…sabihin nio lahat ng positive and negative ko…message me…kaht papano…gusto ko talagang ipa-evaluate ung sarili ko sa 1 psychologist<libre lang un may kakilala ako> plz help me…thnx…God bLezz

paranoia????

September 17th, 2005 by graeco-romana-13

paranoia…paranoid ako…yan ang palaging nasa utak ko this fast few days/weeks…inde ko alam kung bakit…kahit ako tinatanong ko sarili ko kung bakit ako napaparanoid…andaming bagay ang gumugulo sa aking isipan…

1. meron akong friend na matatawag ko ng "bestfriend"…cguro, dahil ung bonding moment namin kasi pag may problem cia with his lovelyf…tropa ko din naman ung partner nia eh…thus, ung wrestling namin palagi, lagi nga akong kawawa, pano ba naman fit na fit ung katawan nia eh samantalang ako sobrang thin as in…then one day, nag-away kami, batsa mababaw na reason lang…nagalit ako sa kanya…ciempre…sabi ko di ko cia papansinin…talagang di ko cia pinansin..kaya lang inde ko maiwasang hindi cia batiin kasi nasa isang bahay lang kami…eh kasama namin ung gf nia…tapos meron pa ciang 2 tropa na nadito..minsan feeling ko pinagu-uusapan nila ako…may sinasabi silang masama sa akin <which is  nasa isip ko lang…then sometimes, ung mga kilos nila…inde ko talaga maiwasang mabwisit…naiiinis ako pag ganun…kaya lang di ako makareact sa akanila kasi isip ko lang yum…wala pa akong confirmation…pinaprangka ko sila kaya lang inde daw……basta…diba magulo???? ang alam ko…tama ung nasa isip ko..now anong gagawin ko para lumabas sa kanila ung nasa isip ko…

2. parehas din ng character nung sa una, bad breath daw ako…basta palagi nila akong niloloko na bad breath daw ako…eh kasi naman ako…la akong pakialam kahit nasa harap ng ibang tao…inaamoy ko tuloy ung hininga ko…pinagtatawanan lang nila ako…<lang kwenta noh>..ang point ko d2 eh..<sa isip lang> bat yaw nila sabihin ng diretsa eh sabi ko naman sa kanila sabihin nila ung nakikitang masama sa akin..kahit hygiene pa un…la akong pakialam..kung tunay silang kaibigan dba….kung kaibigan nga talaga ang turing nila sa akin? batsa ako friend ang turing ko dun sa 1 boy at dun sa 1 girl…sa 2..inde maciado dahil may naririnig akong kakaiba sa kanila…

3. may pinuntahan akong ex-college classmate, nagkwentuhan and dumating ung topis sa psychological behavior ko…sabi na psychological incapacitated daw ako…i agree to her, slight lang, kasi kahit ako may nakikita akong kabaliwang ginagawa ko, tanong ko tuloy sa sarili ko…baliw na ba talaga ako or baliw ako? dba un rin un…isip ako ng isip tungkol dun…kailangan kong masolusyonan yun…then ginawa ko…i talk to a friend…yung babae sa no. 1….sabi nia normal lang un sa katulad ko…SA KATULAD NAMIN…<isa siyang napakatalinong babae….pero nasa uso…ung bang "MODERN NERD" ganun..kasi daw iba kami mag-isip…basta…ganun…nasabi ko tuloy sa sarili ko…aba tama bang i-level nia ako sakanya..it means…matalino din ako waheheheh….i trust her very much kaya kahit papano naging panatag ung loob ko…pero inde rin until now..naguguluhan pa din ako and habang tumatagal nacoconfused ako sa kanya…parang di totoo ung cnabi…bumalik na naman ung mga kung anu-anong iniisip ko…

basta kung cno man ung nakakakilala sa akin…tulungan nio ko…sabihin nio lahat ng positive and negative ko…message me…kaht papano…gusto ko talagang ipa-evaluate ung sarili ko sa 1 psychologist<libre lang un may kakilala ako> plz help me…thnx…God bLezz

si itay at si kuya…

September 2nd, 2005 by graeco-romana-13

Hope you will enjoy and be blessed with this story.

              A young man was getting ready to graduate from college. For many months he had admired a beautiful sports car in a dealer’s showroom, and knowing his father could well afford it, he told him that was all he wanted. As Graduation Day approached, the young man awaited signs that his father had purchased the car. Finally, on the morning of his graduation, his father called him into his private study. His father told him how proud he was to have such a fine son, and told him how much he loved him. He handed his son a beautiful wrapped gift box. Curious, but somewhat Disappointed, the young man opened the box and found a lovely, leather-bound Bible, with the young man’s name embossed in gold. Angrily, he raised his voice to his father and said, "With all your money you give me a Bible? and stormed out of the house, leaving the Bible. Many years passed and the young man was very successful in business. He had a beautiful home and wonderful family, but realized his father was very old, and thought perhaps he should go to him. He had not seen him since that graduation day. Before he could make arrangements, he received a telegram telling him his father had passed away, and willed all of his possessions to his son. He needed to come home immediately and take care of things. When he arrived at his father’s house, sudden sadness and regret filled his heart. He began to search through his father’s important papers and saw the still new Bible, just as he had left it years ago. With tears, he opened the Bible and began to turn the pages. His father had carefully underlined a verse, Matt 7:11, "And if ye, being evil know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more shall your Heavenly father which is in heaven, give to those who ask Him?" As he read those words, a car key dropped from the back of the Bible. It had a tag with the dealer’s name, the same dealer who had the sports car he had desired. On the tag was the date of his graduation, and the words…PAID IN FULL. How many times do we miss God’s blessings because they are not packaged as we expected? I trust you enjoyed this. Pass it on to others. Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; but remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for…

IF YOUR GIFT IS NOT PACKED THE WAY YOU WANT IT, IT’S BECAUSE IT IS BETTER PACKED THAT WAY! ALWAYS APPRECIATE LITTLE THINGS; THEY USUALLY LEAD YOU TO ATTACHMENTS! PLS SEND THIS TO ATLEAST TWO PEOPLE SO AS TO LET THIS GREAT LESSON FLOW AROUND.

hay buhay…

August 15th, 2005 by graeco-romana-13

hi guys…sana binabasa nio mga blogz ko…gud day nga pala…start na ako ha…

cguro mga a month ago ng magbukas ako ng mga messages ko d2 sa fwendstah…may bago pala akong message from tut-tut…confidential eh..hehehe…anyway..cia nga pla ung former bestfriend ko…former??? kasi nagkaroon kami ng gap dahil sa Bf niang c tut-tut…confidential ulit eh… pinipili ko cia…<uu, lam kong mali ang papiliin cia ngunit para sa akin un ang nararapat para wala ng problema..and besides gusto ko ciang papiliin eh…pake nyo ba..! jokies lang pow..!> ako o ung bf nia….then sabi nia "ngayon pa ako pipili eh nagawa ko na plano ko!" aba..tama ba un ..hehehe

ok balik tayo sa message nia…sabi nia treasure daw nia fwendship namin ..<ako rin naman ah>..sabi niya nagbabati nman kami dati pag nag-aaway kami..<dati un> sabi din nia para maging formal sabihin ko sa kanya na "i dont want to be your friend" para tapos na"… eh di cnabi ko..in bold letters pa nga!!! hehehe…

ang sama ko noh! cguro dahil sa sama lang ng loob koh..nagsalita na ako ng tapos…tapos sa pagiging bestfwends and pagiging fwends namin…hanggang dun na lang un…close ko na ang chapter n g book ko sa kanya…cguro tama na na kilala ko na lang cia..hanggang dun na lang un …inde na dapat ma dugtungan pa…dba…dba…dba….?

ang hirapppppppppppppppp

July 22nd, 2005 by graeco-romana-13

          buhay talaga, ang hirap patakbuhin, ang daming mga factors na minsan di mo kayang itake na kahit alam  nating parte ng buhay tong mga to…ako, ako yung taong palaging nakangiti, makulit na cute<joke>, basta ganun, ako nga yung may 2 faces, sa likod ng mga ngiti at kakulitang ibinibigay ko…lungkot at pagdurusa ang dinadanas ko now…inde ko alam kung bakit kailangan kong itago tong mga to…siguro takot lang akong ipakita ang mga to or ayoko lang kaawaan ako ng tao…or pwede ring pinipilit kong kalimutan ang mga to…

   last sunday,july 17, 2005… may twist na nangyari sa buhay ko…i tried to attempt suicide…inde ko na kasi nakayanan nung time na un eh…i tried to kill myself through knife, try ko ding tumalon sa hagdanan, thinugot ko ung kawad ng kuryente,  try ko ding magpakalunod sa dagat…ang tanga ko noh…ang baliw baliw ko…but after nun, natatawa ako, lam nio kung bakit…sinasaksak ko ung sarili ko ng knife but the knife is mapurol, inde nga makahiwa eh…sa hagdanan, nabalian lang ako…ung kawad ng kuryente, pinatay pala nila ung main switch, sa dagat, ang layo layo ko na, babaw pa rin ng tubig, ang kati kati, burak na yata ung dagat na yun eh…allergy lang nakuha ko…

   talagang ang buhay ay sadyang mapaglaro, o sadyang "masamang damo mahirap mamatay"..hehehe….until now, inde ko alam kung anong mangyayari, keng kelan kaya ako mamatay, cute pa din ba ako pag namatay na ako…hehehehe…..basta bahala na kung no mangyari sa akin…accept ko na lang lahat..and ill take those problem easily….